Read this, nearly died and instantly thought of the_funmonkey something Im sure she appreciates but hopefully understands

"His name is Speedy, him being a drug addict was pretty much a foregone conclusion. It's like walking in on your ward doing a corpse and exclaiming "Necrophilia Lad! How could you?!"

Have you ever had something bad/upsetting/whatever happen/do something etc that you want to tell someone but cant bring yourself to do it because whats the point?you already know what theyll say sorry...thats not fair...Itll get better... and you just dont want to sit there and hear it because you know that saying it out loud or sharing it hasnt halved the problem, hasnt and wont make it better or stop it from having happened BUT you need to vent somehow and so turn to your journal post page just so you can write it all down but then dont want to post it because you dont want to make your friends page sit through your whiny patheticness?(and yes I realise Ive made you sit through mine before) but you feel you cant NOT at least write it down, write out some of the feelings and have them be read or in some way validated by another person that you cant get from writing it in a traditional journal????????????

Or am I insane as well as whiny and pathetic??

I should not sing in public.

I should not sing 99Biker Friends in public.

Loudly

It goes without saying I should not sing it badly

COld, wet, tired english people waiting at the bus stop are harsh critics.

Bastards

Like many others that are fans of The Black Dagger Brotherhood, I'm not overly thrilled by the change in style from fantasy/romancey type thing to urbanfantasy thing. Dont get me wrong, still loving hard on the series but feel Ward didnt transition smoothly, it felt rushed and awkward and (possibly as a ruse to keep people readng)she doesnt seem to follow fan wants when it comes to which Brother she writes about next.

However this isnt the main point of my rant. Is it normal that Im most upset that the latest book cover wont match the style of the previous six??? The first one are really beautiful (to me)or at least the american covers are, the uk ones are ugly but hey ho. and yet now, we get this new style and it doenst flow on my bookshelf and Im actually having a minor meltdown over it.

So please fellow ljers, relieve my stressed soul and tell me that its perfectly normal behaviour to be upset that books in series wont have matching covers......

Hmmm, hit another snag with this weight loss thingy.

Wanted: my breasts. Awoke this morning to discover they had ceased their gentle decrease in size and done a runner. Should you see them, please do not approach, they are unsupported and scared, just report the sighting. If found please return as bra is finding life terribly empty without them.


Also, giving the problems post-surgery that im having with my right leg what with the falling over and weakness and such, breaking a toe on the left foot was possibly not my wisest move. in my defence it only happened because the right leg buckled, leaving the left to flail wildly in attempt not to tip whole body into road. Golly good fun to watch Im assured but awfully painful to experience. Oddly, toe is straighter now then it was before. Maybe this is just the ticket.

But i doubt it

Problem 302.3b of losing weight and nearly attaining goal; your rings no longer fit and while you like to continue wearing them you find yourself constantly hunting for them in pockets and on the floor when you realise theyve fallen off. Now you could of course have them resized but this is an expensive business especially when its all of your rings and many of them it woud cost more to resize than it did to originally purchase them so you make do with alternate methods such as string wrapped around them or those little plastic sleeve things to reduce their size but that only works so far.

And then this morning happens. You reach for the handle on the toilet, depress it, bring hand back, watch as rings depart into toilet bowl and then the water clears to reveal acres of pristine porcelain and zip. Witness if you will, nada, nothing no rings at all.

I wonder the adventures they are having along miles of pipes. Or in fact probably sitting just on the other side of the u-bend but eh, I aint going in after them. My sister would be appalled, she works in hydrogeology so gets really snitty when people flush things down toilets that shoudlnt go down it. She judges brixxx for flushing Cappy Norman the goldfish down it. apparently its no fun for the guys at the sewage treatment who have to keep hauling the screens up to scrape little fishy carcasses of them, although they do occasionally find live ones.
Moral of story, if rings no longer fit, get them resized or stop wearing them

Off to mourn.

Title:: Fishing is a four letter word PT. 2
Author: captainlogic
Summary:Jack takes Daniel on a vacation that’s out of this world
Word Count:15,000
Rating: nC-17
Disclaimer:None of Stargate belongs to me, only in my sordid dreams
Written For: justhuman
Prompt: vacation but somewhere not the cabin, preferably without fishing/cabin but having some downtime

( Fishing Is....Pt2 )

Title:: Fishing is a four letter word
Author: captainlogic
Summary:Jack takes Daniel on a vacation that’s out of this world
Word Count:15,000
Rating: nC-17
Disclaimer:None of Stargate belongs to me, only in my sordid dreams
Written For: justhuman
Prompt: vacation but somewhere not the cabin, preferably without fishing/cabin but having some downtime

( Fishing is... )

Hey guys, I have a couple of dreamwidth codes up for grabs, indeed 2 of them so if anyone wants them, knows of anyone who wants one drop a comment with name and email addy and the first two to do so will get a code.

Enjoy! :)

Its been a long time since I wrote anything and awhile since I posted but had a bit of a wave of plots in a variety of fandoms so getting off my ass to write. And you lot get the results. Sorry aboutt that. anyhoo, this is my first foray into Criminal Minds, but not the last Im sure.

Title: Trophies
Author: captainlogic
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Genre: Slash
Pairing: Hotchner/Reid
Rating: G

( Read more... )

Today, I did a good thing.

Despite being 4 weeks post spinal surgery and in a fair amount of pain and unable to feel below the knee on the right leg, I followed through on a promise I'd made to myself and one of my closest friends to walk the local Race For Life to raise money for cancer research in honour of aforementioned friends father who passed away in March.

My sister walked with me as my support team, to make sure I didnt hurt myself or get knocked around etc and made sure I didnt overdo it. Im sore, in quite alot of pain now, very much drugged to the eyeballs but elated when I crossed the finish line and my friend and her mother were there cheering me on, taking photos etc.

So far my sister and I have raised about £300 with sponsorship and giftaid and hope to get a little more before sending it all in but tonight, when I sleep like a log after the 5km I did (which isnt really alot I realise but I had a disectomy and laminectomy so cut me some slack) I can lie there comfy in the knowledge that I helped.

As did all the wonderful people who got involved and helped me raise money by putting my sponsorship link on their facebook pages etc, so a big THANKS to them and everyone who donated. Most of whom think Im crazy nuts for doing this, but the surgery took alot away from me, both personally and professionally and this was MINE, something I wanted and was going to do so if I have hurt myself more then its just my own damn fault, aint it?!

So another thanks to all those that supported me and my stubborn decision, I know some of you dont understand why I had to do this, but most of you do and just smiled at me with a fondly exasperated expression

:):):)

Ah theres nothing like urgent back surgery and ambulance rides to make a gal feel wanted. Or in lots of pain. After months of pain and evidently not loud enough whining to my doctor, lst friday my physio freaked out at the state of me and sent me to the ER of my hopsital where LOADS of doctors threw theyre hats into the ring over my care. The ortho surgeon won and I was transferred to another hopsital for an emergency MRI in case what was wrong needed emergeny op. It didnt but did need urgent op so had to stay in hopital over the weekend bored brainless but my sister and brixxx and boyfriend visited so at least something broke monotony. Operated on monday night. a discectomy and laminectomy(disc removal and removal of a piece of bone) out of bed tuesday night out of hospital yesterday. lying on bed attempting to take it easy which is really hard when you can get comfy cos theres a 3 inch surgical wound at the base of your spine. OWEEEEE
Surgery has however given me perspective. While at first hopsital, in xray, my wallet and mobile were stolen. and yet im mellow and calm. then again tranquilizers will do that to you!

Off to relax some more!

It would appear that my new healthier living, I write having just eaten pie, has gotten to me and I am signing up, lower back problem not withstanding, to run a Race For Life 5k event in June. Im wondering if ive lost my mind. Currently I jog 2.25 miles 4 mornings a week and 5k is about 3 miles so distance shouldnt be a problem but me??? jogging...in public...on purpose? Who is this stranger? I wanna do it in memory of a friend who died of cancer so between new attitude healthy me, and determination to do him proud I think Ill get round.

But seriously, when did I become that person? The one that likes jogging and exercise and looks forward to it? Im scared...

Discovered today that someone took such a shine to my wing mirror that they took it.

I mean who steals a wing mirror. Thought at first that it was just vandalism, sidewalk side door, cars been broken into before, so far so predictable. But after hours of meticulous searching, ha NCIS and CSI finally become useful, it appears that it was taken for parts. Electrical wiring cut with wire cutters, plier marks on the paint work (they scratched my paintwork!) but ner ner on them cos the wires on my mirrors are real short, need to access through trim panel and so they had to cut above the connector so hopefully it'll still work when I get a replacement from a breaker.

Am attempting a level of Zen and balance about it. Im fine, noone I care about was injured(according to my father the car doesnt count, its inanimate-shows what he knows- and its just a thing. THings can be replaced. The calm approach falls down at the REPLACED AT COST side of things. And the lack of transport to go to a party tomorrow(too late for train tickets to be affordable&spine can't cope with coaches). I was looking forward to dressing up as Seely Booth. Was gonna get a fake badge and everything. Borrowed a labcoat for Brixxx too so she could be Bones. Plus watch Brixxx get alot of people drunk with her bartending skills. COcktails tend to get stronger and paler as the night wears on, its amazing.

I'll work on the calm.

On the plus side, got bitten by a nice SG-1 AU bunny last night so going to start work on that, see where it takes me.

So, halfway through the new Doctor Who I thought I was watching Pitch Black. And then realised that Pitch Black did it better.

A decidedly meh effort. FOllowing a distinctly blah effort from new Red Dwarf. Either that or Im very hard to impress this weekend.

No it must be the first one!

Oh fer cryin out loud what have I done??
I've just updated to Firefox 3.0 and things are different
Ok ok not a lot different but I used to have this great little list that dropped down from my navigation bar that had all the sites I visited regularly and Id gotten used to it and knew where everything was to simply oneclick my way to freedom.

AND NOW ITS GONE....

ok ok yes thats a little thing but but but my world is very small and now its small and scary...
Oh its the new avg software all over again...

The Universe can take the hilarious irony of attending a funeral and a baby shower in the same week and shove it.

Even if it does finally give me an excuse to buy one of those hats for babies with the little ears, because in the same trip I have to buy an outfit to wear whilst burying a friend.

The world can just suck it.

I have a sudden uncontrollable, undeniable urge, nay good ljers, NEED to see Ten Inch Hero and the_funmonkey can stop sniggering at the title....I finally figured out where half of the great lines my flist have been using come from and I NEEDS it.

Which leads us to the begging....anyone know if its around? Amazon doesnt have it listed even as a region 1, but I think blockbuster us had it, thus, anyone know if its coming out properly on dvd the_funmonkey I hear that chortling, and if nots why not???

Hey ho, off to work on PB fics. Bless Alex and Michael for their total hotness and total brokenness...

Update: FOUND IT!!!! Yays

Update 2: Motherfucking bastard mega video...I can watch 72 minutes and thats it. Time limit thing comes up, I wait and hour, refresh and it starts again from the beginning. Anyone know how to get around that or am I doomed to not see the end??

Seeing as I have nothing better to do, and isnt that just a sad commentary on my life, and the the_funmonkey knows where I live, I shall complete the meme she so delightfully tagged me on.......

( Me )

Apparently im not content with playing Candian Actor Bingo anymore. Time was that if you hadnt been in The Sentinel, Due south, Smallville and Supernatural you just had no place calling yourself an actor in Canada....but I have moved to pastures new it would seem.

Prison Break actor bingo...

Watching Invasion innocently, and William Fichtner is there being all attractive and Mahone like. SOunds all well and good, until the Stedman turns up. And the woman that played Denise (post office worker that T-Bag...yeah well). So far, so creepy.

Watch Equilibrium, mainly for the whole Christian Bale, Taye Diggs with guns hotness. And there is Fichtner again. and Dominic Purcell (Lincoln)

Watch Armageddon and once again Ficthner is there and so is Abruzzi. There is some sort of conspiracy going on. Or maybe theyre all magnetically attracted to Fichtner (and who'd blame them)

Im either watching too much tv (NEVER), there is a clause in everyones contracts that they must all have worked with Fichtner before or I need more sleep and its just a conikydink that Fichtner is in everything and theres only so many actors in the world...

Either way, not going to stop me mainlining Season 3 Prison Break again. WHo knows, maybe Ill recognise more people for my conspiracy theory....